DAMN YOU CAUGHT ME SLIPPING!!

Richard, First and foremost, I want you to know that I do love you. I am not a liar. I have figured out what's going on. I'm assuming now that you looked through my phone this morning, and saw the text messages in my phone from yesterday. I have no problem admitting that I was wrong for even communicating with the dude. I am also wrong for the type of conversation I was involved in. This is all my fault. I hope that you read the entire conversation, because it was a joke and it said so in the text. I said I'm joking, he said I know, and then he said "so that means no". Again, this conversation should not have taken place. I don't have a logical explaination. No he's not just a cool guy. No we are not really good friends. I won't blame it on you talking to Maria and Tanisha and Lucinda. I will not blame this on you, because it is not your fault. I will say that I am hurt by how you handled the situation. You said that I don't love you and that I am playing with your heart, time, and money. You said some very hurtful things to me. I did have a text conversation, but I don't think that it is worth losing you. I have brought many things to your attention, I discuss them with you, I explain how it makes me feel, and you apologize and we work on it. In my case, there was no discussion, hurtful things said, and something about you going to New Mexico. I can't even grasp the thought of you leaving me. I hope that a text message was not the determining factor in your decision. Also, I feel like this New Mexico situation is something that you already knew about. I am hurt that you didn't tell me that you were considering leaving. I'm not really sure about what else to say other than I love you, the kids love you, my parents love you, I love you, and you treat me very well. Everything has not been a lie. Nothing has been a lie. You are not a sucker. We are both fools in love. We have made drastic changes to our lives for one another, and there is nothing wrong with that. I have not wasted your time, heart, or money. And that is another thing, please don't bring up money when speaking of our relationship. It is an insult. My heart is not for sale. And even if it were, no man could afford it. James, we just had this conversation last night about money. I have been with you when we had nothing to eat, no gas in the car, and no money. I am with you although I know that you don't manage your money well. I took the time out to pay your bills when I could have went to the mall. If it will help us, I will go back to my 9 to 5. You have not wasted anything, because I'M IN LOVE WITH YOU, AND I AM MORE SINCERE THAN ANY WOMAN YOU HAVE EVER KNOW. That is one thing about me-I do what I want and love who I want, regardless of what anyone thinks of me. I went out on faith and my heart, and hope that it was not all in vain. I don't want to lose you. I want us to get married, and have a family. In Atlanta, New Mexico, or the South Pole. It doesn't matter to me. The sooner the better. T2